Story — From the November 2012 issue
This Feels So Real
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When Ashley told me to go home, I went. Well, not immediately. First I walked to a garden and sat on a bench, or I think it was a garden, but there’s a chance it was a cemetery and I was crying on a grave. Who knows. I was not in my home country; love had led me, Ryan P, astray. Love had led me to Taiwan, love had led me to China. Love has led me to China! I tweeted and maybe even said. But maybe love didn’t. So I cried when Ashley broke up with me, something I …
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Heidi Julavits is the author, most recently, of The Vanishers (Doubleday), and a founding editor of The Believer.
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